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In past Christmas times I spent with my in-laws, I always missed the huge gatherings of my own kin, with our Christmas Eve traditions and my Papa dressed up as Santa to the awe of the growing masses of little ones (myself once among them, but no more). I'd miss the huge potlucks and cackling laughter of strong women with ready wit, not realizing that people would look back on the pictures of gatherings when I was absent and think that I was in fact there because my cousin's new wife looked so much like me (just another skinny girl with the same haircut and wide, straight smile).
And now nothing has changed, really. It's easier when I'm with my in-laws, because there are no more strong, cackling women and the parties died with them. Those of us who live have our own families, and no one brings us together anymore. When I'm with the in-laws thinking how lame and imperfect their holidays are, if only they knew, I can pretend that my perfect family holiday is still happening somewhere.
But, I am grateful that I had them while they lasted, and I know this flu or whatever that has laid us low will pass, and maybe next year we'll get it right, even as bare as my side of the family tree has become.
It's all good. My eldest was most excited about a stocking stuffed with new underpants, then they got those Nerf machine guns, and OMG. And my three year old niece demanded I sit beside her at the feast, because she decided I was beautiful.
Now I have my nice, warm socks. Though the highs have been in the 60s, I know I'll need them eventually. I love the games and making towers out of Lego and getting to make stickers with two wee girls to whom I am "Auntie Livvy." I could pick them each up with one hand and it makes me wonder if my boys were ever that small.
Then I realize it really IS all good, and this was a great Christmas. Family is family, and life goes on. :)
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The work goes on as well, and I am very happy with it, too.
Almost there. Stay on target! Notes are piling up for the re-write, too, which I hadn't expected. I mean, I had thought I was going to plow through just so I could say I'd finished it, but I suspected that would be it. So, I'm pleased that character names and things are coming to me, in the walk-up-and-introduce-themselves sort of way. Maybe it's the fever, but I could go on like this.
Then tehre is this:
Which was done on HMOWK. Much of it unexpected until a few days ago, but I'm very pleased with it. I suppose I couldn't ask for more than that. ;)
And now nothing has changed, really. It's easier when I'm with my in-laws, because there are no more strong, cackling women and the parties died with them. Those of us who live have our own families, and no one brings us together anymore. When I'm with the in-laws thinking how lame and imperfect their holidays are, if only they knew, I can pretend that my perfect family holiday is still happening somewhere.
But, I am grateful that I had them while they lasted, and I know this flu or whatever that has laid us low will pass, and maybe next year we'll get it right, even as bare as my side of the family tree has become.
It's all good. My eldest was most excited about a stocking stuffed with new underpants, then they got those Nerf machine guns, and OMG. And my three year old niece demanded I sit beside her at the feast, because she decided I was beautiful.
Now I have my nice, warm socks. Though the highs have been in the 60s, I know I'll need them eventually. I love the games and making towers out of Lego and getting to make stickers with two wee girls to whom I am "Auntie Livvy." I could pick them each up with one hand and it makes me wonder if my boys were ever that small.
Then I realize it really IS all good, and this was a great Christmas. Family is family, and life goes on. :)
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The work goes on as well, and I am very happy with it, too.
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Almost there. Stay on target! Notes are piling up for the re-write, too, which I hadn't expected. I mean, I had thought I was going to plow through just so I could say I'd finished it, but I suspected that would be it. So, I'm pleased that character names and things are coming to me, in the walk-up-and-introduce-themselves sort of way. Maybe it's the fever, but I could go on like this.
Then tehre is this:
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Which was done on HMOWK. Much of it unexpected until a few days ago, but I'm very pleased with it. I suppose I couldn't ask for more than that. ;)
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